Sleepless

Sleepless

Wow.. My eyes only shut like for minutes! Massive headache now.. Cannot afford to sleep.. Got things to do.. If I hit the sack now, prolly won't be waking up till the middle of this night.. >.<~ Ruining my health for nothing's sake! Yea yea..

Blame mii.
Disgust mii.
Envy mii.
Call mii ungrateful.

*laughing out loud*
Sound so emo! Successful?
*blah! nyek nyek nyek*

Stayed up all night surfing for nice, creative and cute cute pictures.. Aih.. To no avail only..
So hard to get nice pictures..! Because that's what we call as tiny theft too! *heh heh!*
Melv the sot sot tei and Shen didi accompanied mii all night.. Not really accompanied la.. They were nocturnals too! Online at odd hours like mii.. =P Then Evelyn came online .. Surprised I asked her what she doing here at this kinda time.. She said she couldnt sleep!

Oh well. I continue my hunt while sot sot tei vainly played the Face Recognition thing at www.myheritage.com .. Then he sent mii the link to see his celebrity's lookalike!

Wah.. Melvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv....

So vain!
Takeshi Kaneshiro !

That's the one that really made mii rofl!
This was sot sot tei's first attempt..

But the strange thing is.. he wants to look hot! He implied that looking like a girl is hot! Oh my.. So after running through the Face Recognition for many times.. He finally decided to let me post one of his.....

" Hottest Face Recognition Results!! "

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" See at your own risk "
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" Dont't die on mii.. "
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TA DA !



Still alive lar ho? =P
Then , I was thinking got any difference meh? Also so few girls wud...
The difference is sot sot tei doesn't want to look like..

Fujiki Naohito
or
Sondre Lerche
or
Ilhan Manstz

*rah rah rah!!*

Everyone blame mii for not replying them on MSN!
Since when?! I replied every single messages I get..
Told them something was wrong with my MSN..
They don't believe mii and accused mii of

haolien
no heart
slow
busy
'boh sim'
afk

*so hurt!* >.<~

Anyway, I continued chatting with Pearly my bestie till she got so sleepy and tired again..So I let her go to her dreamland... Hehe! And I continue my search on the stuffs I want.. Asked muh sis to accompany mii.. But she was all out also.. Lied on the bed and started to hear the ship boarding alreadyyyyyyy.. Lolxxxxxxxx...!

*choo choo choo choo ! ! *

oops.. that's a train.. I forgot what sound ships make...

*pwonggggggggggg.... pwonggggggggggg.. *

is it?! *blahhhhh !* whatever ler.. =P~

Then sot sot tei and I talked about the famous 'Wo Ai Hei Se Hui ' show.. I seldom watch..
Only watch it when I bumped into the show while browsing through Astro Channels..
Last night I watched a little..
So then sot sot tei asked mii.. which girl I think isssssssssss pretttyyy...
Last night's show, the girl sitting in the middle not bad wuddd... Anyway, for your information last night's show teacher was Ah Do ! The sandy and sexyyy voiced mann... =P

AH-DO!

Then, he sent mii a link to their pictures.. aaahh the girl I saw was Apple! But I was like..
aaaaa?? Why she look like that in that pic..? Not nice lehh.. So I asked sot sot tei send mii more links to their pictures.. Aiiiii yerrrrr..... I told sot sot tei I like Apple..
He was like...

WutTTtttTTT??? AppllllEeeeEEEEE?

>.< !!

Sot sot tei's illustration...


So then I know which is Apple d! =P

But she lookss.... ermm *no comment!*Newayyyyyzzzz...

Sot sot tei likes Da Ya...






I think she's pwetty too! ^^

Mei mei also owww kayyyy... ^-^


Kawaiiiiiii desuuu! ^^


*continue post later......tired liaoo...*

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Pearly and Jonas

Before it's too late..
(clock strikes 12.00 a.m. to 3rd of Feb)


Just wanna wish Pearly my bestie and her loveeee Jonassss...

Love you Pearly !
teehees!
Remember put God in the center of your relationship and all will turn out A-OK !
As the matter of fact,
it would be wayyyy much better than that A-OK !
God works wonderssssssssss! ^^
You'll see how strong the bond between you both will become with Him in the center!
As both of you draw near to Him!
*smiles*


Here's a little gift for you both.. ^^




Love and Happiness

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Hyung's Birthday

It's 2nd day of February! The shortest month of the year.. Yet..With the most events happening! It's a month where we celebrate Valentine's Day.. Chinese New Year ! And also birthdays ! All the big big events where people tend to spend lotsaaaaa money while some people earn lotsaaa money from the goodies they sell ! *hip hip hurray to you guys who are earning vewwwwyyy wellll!* =P

2nd of February.. How come it does not ring a bell to mii till you've mentioned it..? So paiseh !
Probably the erasing of memory really worked kinda well.. *oops!*

It's Hyung's birthday ! ^^
Happy Birthday Old Man!
You're really turning vewy vewy old! =P

Old and old as you can be! *evil laugh! mwahahaha*
All the best to you in everything ! Especially in your current job now okies? Ganbatte ! ^^
Interesting ABC kid that is turning into a grown man..ermm
grown old man... *ahemz*

Watched American Idol today.. Got lotsa comments on it.. But
I'm such a laze to mention everything.. The only thing that really makes mii crack my head thinking is.. Why do the Americans on the show have soooo much courage and confidence in themselves? And how?

I really need to learn from them..



Ow kay.. I don't mean it in a sarcastic way.. According to reuters, these are dillusional singers.. Hmm.. But don't they look so geared up with confidence? Admire those energy in them! *thumbs up!*

BUT.. Here's what Mr.Cowell would gesture..

Yes! You've guessed it right, alright.. humm.. Abuthen? =P



Browsed through many sites regarding The American Idol.. My friends would say its lame to watch that kinda show.. Might as well use the time to watch something better... But aaa.. for the lameness and fun.. and since I've got nothing to do... Watch the talented sing and the not so talented ones entertain.. =P Sometimes they really do make mii laugh till I get sick to my stomach! *teehees!*

Browsing through sites.. Things cannot get lamer than this!

Impostors !! *bleh!*



Host of the show Ryan Seacrest ain't that bad lookin either..
Has a sense of humour and friendly sarcasm to counter Simon Cowell at times..
Grrrrreatttt social and presentation skillss.. People will be like..Duh? If not how did he even get his name on a star on the Hollywood's Walk Of Fame! Now that's a dream come true.. Lolx!





All in all .. My All Time Favourite American Idol goes to....................

BO BICE HOTTIE !

*drooling.... =P~*

Ow kay... Enough of my nonsense .. *teehees!*

I've been told many times from my closest and best friends that I have a bad characteristic.. Being low and negative of myself.. Well.. I really cannot help it.. It's in my nature.. I think I'm incapable of the things I do.. I really think so.. I don't put so much or high hopes in things.. Because I wouldnt want to be over depressed when I do not reach my goal... Plus too much of confidence when you really cannot do anything is a shameful thing to mii..
An extreme or drastic level of confidence which would bring us nowhere....................

Yes.. Probably,you would always feel happy about yourself.. But what about other's viewpoint of you? Some would say to hell what everyone thinks.. Just believe in yourself.. Let's say this person is your manager.. Someone way up above you.. Would you still care less? =P~ Believing that you can really achieve something.. Is a positive attitude but requires hard work, focus and strength! And most of all ..
A positive and moderate aim.. ! Not something incredibly unachievable.. If there's such word.. *bleh* Like example being Hollywood's Famous Star.. Or get my name on the Walk Of Fame.. Or winning a Nobel Prize... Being awarded in the Grammy Awards.. ! Wahhh.. *blerrrrrrrrr*

Like a friend would say.. It's possible.. If you just DREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM ONN!
Hahahaha! ^^ Neways..

This post should actually be solely dedicated to Hyung, the birthday boy ...oops wrong again..
Birthday Old Man.. *nyek nyek nyek!!*

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Gory

Another day has just passed.. Wanted to blog this early morning! 5.45 a.m. But eventually I didnt had the mood.. My sister's alarm clock rang and it's time for her to get ready for school while I was just ready to get to bed.. What a psycho I am.. Sleeping at odd hours which so many people had reminded me it's not good for my health.. Well I sleep a lot in the mornings.. I get up when it's time for lunch.. Although it may be 6 hours to 12 hours I've slept.. I can still see the black ring around my eyes.. How pathetic looking! So ..... hummm.. PANDA ! @.@

Well I always had those when exams draw near in Uni. It's holidays now.. There's not much difference too ! Nyek nyek nyek.. Saying I'm not appreciating time for rest? I cannot disagree..
I'm sorry .. Not to you but myself.. =P

Last night, I was waiting for an online friend to get on the net.. *roar* to no avail.. So ddddddddddddiiiisssaappointteeddd..

( Bii.. I hate you! =P )

But anyway, I chatted with a few people I've deeply missed and some memories just got out while we're chatting.. Since everything is in the past.. No harm taking it out and laugh about it.. It was all good anyway.. ^^

*winks to kagie*

Shen didi sent mii a few songs.. And I absolutely like it.. Thanksss!! He created a blog but to put in some love stories in it which most of them I've already read.. except for one about the butterfly!! awww..
made mii teared a bit.. was very touching.. =(

Before 12 a.m. actually struck.. I was messaging all my friends that I could find on the net to pray for my dear friend who is currently ill.. =( Asked everyone a huge favor to pray for his well being ... his good health.. ^^ Thanks a lot friends! Really appreciate it a lot ! I know and trust God will listen to our prayers! Love you guys! Thanks again!..

He messaged mii early this morning anyway.. He told mii the doctors were not sure what infection he got yet.. But it could be PTB? Hmm.. Anyway, I don't wanna talk in detail what happened..Because it might hurt him .. *sigh* Will just pray he gets well soon! Thanks for sharing with mii what happened to you.. Thanks for trusting mii! ^^

Alright, hmm.. Woke up and read a few blogs.. First I went to Kenin's .. Which I had help him to change layout but he didn't thank mii!! *sobs* ! Then he asked if I can put a taggie for him in his blog.. But I was busy chatting and was goin into a game liao.. So I didnt.. =P
Okies.. After reading... I saw his friend's link! He didn't link mii! *roar* But nevermind about that.. I saw jie's blog !! Kimberly jie! So I happily clicked on it.. And it led mii into a page with aaaaa hugeeee picture of her in there.. Waaaaaaaaaa... So pretty! *teehees!* It was a photo of her with a face recognition system results from myheritage.com .. Lolxx! I've seen this before months agooo.. in Hyung's blog.. Made mii laugh my head off.. But at that time I didn't had the interest to try it out.. =P
So I read her entries..
Jie... Jia you o! In yr exams on the 15th Feb! Be with you in prayers! *huGs*
Jie sooo cute.. Like the kid in the picture.. ! Hehehe! ^^ famous kid by the way..

And so.. her blog led mii into another interesting blog.. of Andrew Ho's.. Some kuchingnite which I never knew exist till this day today.. Another blogger who's got the blogging bugs on him.. ^^
And that's where I saw where the
Face Recognition trend thing came up again.. His latest post was an entry about it ..and that's what that made my jie got the idea and posted about it too! =P
Oh well.. I guess its the influencess... So I decided to..

Make myself ONE !
*mwahahaha*

*evil laugh!*

*browsing thru the huge piles of ugly pics of mine..searching for the best.. spects or without.. *roar!!* indecisive girl am i*

Alright .. have already made my decision .. Since my KK friends said I look better without spects which they have only seen ONCE ! *bleh* I know you only want to make me happy Hiew..
And Chris.. Who ask you to steal my photo ar? But guai orhh.. Listen to mii and delete..Hope you didn't transfer it to yr computer.. If not I bash you up when I get back to Miri.. Lolxx! ^^
U jaga ya? *roarrrrrrrrr*

Hmm.. Time to paste mii my results from myheritage.. *nyek nyek nyek*



Err.. When I saw the results.. I had no comment.. myheritage really knows how to take care of people's heart.. by giving them results like these... hmm... =P Thanks to myheritage anyway..
U made mii happy for at least today? *kekeke*

oops.. i 4gotten to add.. I checked Kenny's blog today too. Actually everyday..*oops!*
But no new post.. *sobs*

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Tears

Another night of tears and pain.. I wanted very much to write a happy post today.. But seems like my life does not have any of those happiness.. Woke up late like usual and had my breakfast + lunch altogether , in front of the TV.. Typical TV lunch person... Then watch a bit of every series that I actually follow.. All 3 at the same time.. How crammed! Hmmmf... =P

Nothing to do and feel very useless.. Computer online all day.. But everyone else has a life and were pretty busy with their life unlike me.. Like I have been told.. I'm a useless brat anyway..
Thanks for info..! Now I clearly understand how you people feel about me... I don't blame you..
>.<~ I read a chapter of my horror story book with the title " The Keeper " .. Was not that interesting so I didnt move on to the next chapter.. Leave it for tomorrow.. Went to read the newspapers.. Called 'The Junk' Roselyn for an interview tomorrow.. Got nothing to do.. Successful or not actually I do not mind.. Searched for a few jobs already..Nothing that meets what I want.. I know.. fussy me.. Hmm.. Well... I still have tomorrow's newspapers advert. to look forward to! Wanna make dis short.. Hmm. Shared with my friend about my painful experience of what is happening to me now.. Making me feel so lowly and sad at this moment while writing this blog. Cried till my eyes kinda hurt now.. My lips are sore because of the tissue paper I used to dry my tears that rolled from my eyes to my cheeks and my lips... =( Well.. All this that is happening to me .. happens for a reason.. But I have yet to understand the real reason behind all this... Lord, please show me... Bring him back, Lord.
Give him strength to go on. I trust in You Oh God! =(

I dreamnt of you...
You were the same you like I knew you in real life..
With that handsome smile of yours that melts my heart..
You look better in my dreams actually..
I was happy to be able to see you again in my dreams..
Because you are far away from me..
I wanted to know the feeling of you loving me again..
But.....
In my dreams, you hurt me again..
Again and again I feel my heart being stomp on the ground hard..
It shattered..
I tried picking it up..
But in my dreams I failed..
I fall ..
I tremble..
I hid..
I cried..
For what I saw in my dreams..
You held that girl's hand..
So tightly ..
So warm..
You were smiling...
I saw happiness in your eyes..
But you didnt look back to my direction..
You were too busy smiling at her..
Admiring her hair..
Her smile...
Caressing her smooth hand...
Laughing at her jokes..
Listening to her every word with every beat of your heart..
I was behind you all along..
But you never noticed the tears I'm crying for you...
You never turn back to give me a second of glance..
I broke down and cried.. while you were smiling so happily...
The pain in my heart that I felt in my dream awakens me...
My face felt wet..
My pillow was wet because of my tears...
I realised...
I cried even when I was asleep..
I never knew how much you really meant to me..
I saw your life being filled with happiness in my dreams...
If I'd say I'm not jealous of that girl..
I would be lying..
But honestly..
I'm happy for you..
Because............................

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Heart

Surprisingly as I browse through the channels on Astro, MTV caught my attention for at least 10 minutes. A video clip from Pink on her 2006 debut song 'Who Knew' and also Kelly Clarkson's 'Walk Away'.. Both so controversial in fact !

Since Valentine's Day is just around the corner, there were these pop up messages you can actually send to MTV so that the intended people your message is for, can actually read it, together with the peeple who were happening to watch that video clip at that moment. I assumed there were guys and girls sending in those messages from the look of their names. Many were expressing how bad their love experiences were. How painful it is when the love of their life has finally dissappeared. How hateful the emotions involved were. The forever and undying misery that can never seem to have an end to it. And what those experiences have left them with what they are now.. However, some did expressed that love teaches them a lot and they are learning from those painful experiences to be a stronger person! In short, they would never give up on love. Never.

Pink's story behind her song, she keeps the memory of her love one forever. For he has made a promise to her and their love will be forever. If anyone comes to advice her to move on because in three years time (separation duration) He would be long gone. As in he would never come back to her arms. So move on! Pink would defend him and give them a good punch for she believes her love will come back.

Pink's story has moved me. Waiting is not something easy to do. It takes a lot of courage, discipline and also faith in yourself and your lover. I believe if its true love. Waiting would not be that hard for us. The heart knows it the best for a thousand miles could never break the undying bond of love in the hearts of true lovers. Which we often called as loyalty and unconditional love.

On the other hand, Kelly is telling us that we have to move on because some guys are really players. When they got you , they take you for granted. So if they do not care for you, just move on. Don't wait for them like a kid waiting for their ride home after school. Girls are looking for attention and love and care from their lover. If they don't have an answer for that. They ain't for you.Guys, if you don't care about a girl at all, just leave .. Don't leave things hanging around and get the girl's emotion all mixed up. It could ruin our lives. You might be the cause of everything bad that's happening in her life. A scar for life.
Psychology distress and negativity is no game. It's a murderer. Better safe than sorry. If you do not want a relationship, then don't even try to outburst your mixed up #$$#$@$ emotions and decide to take it back later.
Pretender, just WALK AWAY!

Valentine's day is soooo near. You can see Valentine's gift stalls mushrooming around the city. Lovers joking around on what they should get for each other. Gift orders flying here and there. Friends or relatives busy with Valentine preparations to earn an extra income in their pocket. Broken hearts expressing how much they miss their ex's and how much they would love to spend Valentine's with them. Loners who speaks of how lonely this year 2007's Valentine would be again.. What's more, hearts that frets every single beat of their heart because they have not capture the hearts of the one they love....

As for me, Valentine's would be again lonely too.. Loner's category! *sigh* However, in a way I am glad and still happy because the Lord has not let go of the hands of someone I deeply love. Lord, please hold on tight. >.<

a friend...
a neighbour...
affliate...
a 'hi and goodbye' friend...
or even as an enemy..
or someone whom I would never meet again..

Any it may be Lord.. Just let him live on, be healthy and happy..
Thank You from the bottom of my heart Lord..

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If I could give you one thing in life,
I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes,
only then would you realize how special you are to me...

When I saw you I liked you,
when I liked you I loved you,
when I loved you I lost you.

I love you more than any word can say ...
I love you more than every action I take ...
I'll be right here loving you till the end.

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I Still Do..

A Silent Love

From the very beginning, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"

The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.

The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......

The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.

During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her.

Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....

The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.

With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.

When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You" With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.

" Love, you said you didn't want to see me get hurt,
so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried? "
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Baby I Loved You

Aku yang lemah tanpamu

Aku yang rentan karena

Cinta yang t'lah hilang

Darimu yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka

Sampai jantung tak berdetak

Selama itu pun aku mampu

Untuk mengenangmu

Darimu kutemukan hidupku

Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

Bila yang tertulis untukku

Adalah yang terbaik untukmu

Kan kujadikan kau

Kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku

Meninggalkan jejak hidupku

Yang t'lah terukir abadi

Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

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