regrets

I understand my weakness and acknowledge my faults in life..I know I am not able to please everyone in every way I am now..In every 10 I meet, there would always be 1 that probably I could only please.

" The tongue is sharper than a sword "

Sometimes I wish to return to my old self..Was a loner for the years of my high school..I guess I was pretty much happier then! Don't have to .. involve myself in complicated matters that tears out my heart.. tear in pain and sorrow at lonely nights.. regret for the words I've spoken of.. be paranoid of others talking about you.. participate in 'bad' conversations.. walk around with my head tilted down to the floor
But just live life happily! and SMILE even when things go wrong!
Had only one friend that I could seek for when I'm in need of someone to share a little span of my life with.. She has an uncountable amount of friends, so I had only few hours with herevery week. And this girl is my best friend for life. Love every single bit of her!
" I think about you everyday even thought its just a second or two "
Our human weakness is we get so carried away in conversations which tendto make us talk about others. And it's seriously non-beneficial but risk taking, crucially hazardous and fatal. Backstabbing has always been hottest gadget in our lives. Why do I say hottest? Well, how does hot relate to our after death?
Backstabbing. Why does it have to happen ? Why does the word even existed?Or.. does the word really existed?
The answer is NO.. There is no such word as backstabbing.
The origin of this word is from the word

" Back-biting "

According to the Oxford Dictionary,
Back-biting defines an unpleasant and unkind talk about somebody who is not present.
Now, is this category in the field of sociology?
In today's world, YES!
Although we say we do not backbite but we do talk about others right?Therefore, we need to be careful of the words spoken through our mouth.Words spoken can never and I say never ever be taken back. Which means, there is no such thing as
" I take back my words.. " Therefore does that mean in life, you can choose either to be the prey or the victim..?You might be able to control yourself but can you control others? The answer is clear..its a NO!
I can never learn the lesson that has been happening over and over in my life.How many times in life have I been so stubborn not to listen to the advices given to me..

" Trust no one but the Lord and yourself "

can the past be turn back time?

My mind runs...
Should I confront my problems and resolve them?
Helping myself to understand them and let them understand me?
Ask for forgiveness and never mention about them anymore?
Seek for a healthier social life and easing of pain?
Should I forget the past and get on with my life?

My mind speaks...
of the priorities in my life..
of the wonderful and meaningful things..
of the times I really cherished with them..

My mind saddens..
of the times I've disappoint them..
of the times I've let them down..
of the times knowing they are speaking of me..
of the friendship that was lost..
of the care and love that can never be regain..
of the looks from a stranger but not a friend..
I believe that my life is not any different than others..

Others claimed that life sucks when they are in times of trouble..In times of happiness, in times of belonging.. those fears are gone..Why not vanish those fears and live life happily?

Easy for me to say.. I know.. =P~
But,

" With the Lord, All things are possible! " Amen!

" Why ponder on memories that saddens when you have an ever-flowing of happiness coming in your way? "