I shouldnt let u leave

当你决定你要离开我


我没有说什么


就当作你自由


有好几次 我都想挽留


苦求也没有用


就当作是寂寞

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surgery

Again felt the fear of cutting and stitches..
Taste of blood and solitude..
The night before I could not sleep...
Keep on awakening at odd hours

Where were you when I needed you?

T.T

Arose from my bed in the morning..
Still I can manage a smile,
Got myself ready for something I was not looking forward to.....
Drove myself to a four walled building known as the hospital..
Anxious but fearful waiting in line for my name to be called...

' Amanda Chin! '

My heart just skipped a beat..

' It's my turn? ermm.. Now? '

Met a doc/surgeon called Dr.Matt...
Explained the procedures....


*tick tock tick tock* (last 20 minutes to prepare myself emotionally and mind)


Lying helplessly, cloth-covered my body..
All I see is a bright light shining on top of me..
What a surgery room looks like?


but darker when the operation was carried out..

My mind was spinning and thinking so much..
The last time I went through this I had Mama by my side..
But now..
No one was there with me ..
to let me feel more peace and calmness with the grip of a hand..
Really needed that... but the only hand I could hold was my own.....

T.T

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EB

-E.B-

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name


The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you


Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here


When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

-E.G-

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