surgery

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Again felt the fear of cutting and stitches..
Taste of blood and solitude..
The night before I could not sleep...
Keep on awakening at odd hours

Where were you when I needed you?

T.T

Arose from my bed in the morning..
Still I can manage a smile,
Got myself ready for something I was not looking forward to.....
Drove myself to a four walled building known as the hospital..
Anxious but fearful waiting in line for my name to be called...

' Amanda Chin! '

My heart just skipped a beat..

' It's my turn? ermm.. Now? '

Met a doc/surgeon called Dr.Matt...
Explained the procedures....


*tick tock tick tock* (last 20 minutes to prepare myself emotionally and mind)


Lying helplessly, cloth-covered my body..
All I see is a bright light shining on top of me..
What a surgery room looks like?


but darker when the operation was carried out..

My mind was spinning and thinking so much..
The last time I went through this I had Mama by my side..
But now..
No one was there with me ..
to let me feel more peace and calmness with the grip of a hand..
Really needed that... but the only hand I could hold was my own.....

T.T

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A place where I can share my thoughts, interests and dreams to friends and family or even strangers who stumble upon this humble blog of mine~ The title of the blog was adapted from a quote of love from St. Augustine whom once said

"Love is temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become entwined together that is is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is.

Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."



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