boyceavenue

Have been so addicted to this song for the past few days.. actually for about 2 weeks d!
But still I love ittttttttttttttt!..
Sharing it with ya all...

They are known as boyceavenue from Florida. ^^
Should log in to youtube and listen to their covers!
Phewwwwwitttttttttttttttttttt! =P~

Alejandro rock on both acoustics and piano! ^^

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I shouldnt let u leave

当你决定你要离开我


我没有说什么


就当作你自由


有好几次 我都想挽留


苦求也没有用


就当作是寂寞

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surgery

Again felt the fear of cutting and stitches..
Taste of blood and solitude..
The night before I could not sleep...
Keep on awakening at odd hours

Where were you when I needed you?

T.T

Arose from my bed in the morning..
Still I can manage a smile,
Got myself ready for something I was not looking forward to.....
Drove myself to a four walled building known as the hospital..
Anxious but fearful waiting in line for my name to be called...

' Amanda Chin! '

My heart just skipped a beat..

' It's my turn? ermm.. Now? '

Met a doc/surgeon called Dr.Matt...
Explained the procedures....


*tick tock tick tock* (last 20 minutes to prepare myself emotionally and mind)


Lying helplessly, cloth-covered my body..
All I see is a bright light shining on top of me..
What a surgery room looks like?


but darker when the operation was carried out..

My mind was spinning and thinking so much..
The last time I went through this I had Mama by my side..
But now..
No one was there with me ..
to let me feel more peace and calmness with the grip of a hand..
Really needed that... but the only hand I could hold was my own.....

T.T

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EB

-E.B-

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name


The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you


Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here


When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

-E.G-

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i l l

Have not been blogging since my Christmas message! A lot has happened since then. Had a really nice and warm celebration with my family. Wrapping presents, decorating our home,

'SNOW' ON OUR WINDOWS

SNOWMANNNNN ^^

playing christmas songs and also preparing finger food for the Christmas Carolers! The carolers came to our home and sang a few songs. They were friends and friends from church whom we knew for quite some time. ^^ They did really good and my family and friends truly enjoyed it.
Wanted to capture photographs and a video of them but ...

dreadful dreadful dreaddddfulllllllll... the camera was out of battery when I clicked RECORD!

sadddd.. had to use some phone camera of my sister's friend to dub the audio.. Haven heard it yet but hope it is fine. Just for memories =)

Went to Midnight mass.... Wow the church is really flooding.. Had difficulty in finding seats. But Thank God we had a place even though the view was sort of blocked, still very thankful.

I've truly missed the time when me and my friends come out to town to sing carols and spread the good news of the birth of our Lord. Felt a little twitch in the heart that actually I should have joined them because I have the opportunity to come back early. But should not regret! Hehe!

Spent those times with my dear UNO ^^

The holidays has been real good..

Christmas,
New Year,
Empowered Ball,
Beth's birthday,
Evelyn and David's Engagement Dinner,
Welcoming a new member in the family,
Meeting up with friends from Miri
and
Empowered Weekend Away.

EMPOWERED WEEKEND AWAY NOTICE BOARD

Will blogged about them soon when I get the photographs from friendssss! I brought my camera back home but I left the important thing bck in Miri!

The memory cardddddddddd!

Aiyayayayayaiiiii!

=(

Despite the happy'sssss, I had to go through some fears too.. Had to overcome some illness of my body.

Had a protocopy done and surgeon prescribed some medication for the healing and recovery.

PREPARING FOR SURGERY

To endure the pain during the operation is real suffering but I had no choice. The seconds of the aftermath of the surgery, I was shivering and in pain, felt like I loss a lot of blood. Errghhh.. Pale feeling. Had a pretty hard time, so most of the time stayed at home for speedy recovery.
Everything seems okay after that.. Was recovering and reallllll gladddd... ^^

Had the excitement to go for Empowered Weekend-Away everydayyyy.. But two days before the day came.. I felt my eyes burning of a real high degree in my body. Gave me a clue that I am getting a fever! Stucked a thermometer I got from the drawer and saw the measurement of my body temperature on the thermometer rising and rising!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! not nowww not nowwwwwwww!

=(((((((

Confirmed with a fever, I swallowed two pills of paracetamol and a pill of flu medicine and head straight to bed. I prayed that I would get well the next day. The next morning, my body felt so weak that I couldnt get up. I felt so cold and hide in my comforter. Had the air conditioner switched off and the fan.. Still I felt so cold.

=((

Swallowed more of those paracetamol. Hoping and praying to get well soon, I rested on the our living room couch the whole day. Fell asleep while watching tv, woke up when everyone was back and noticed that my eye got infected from the burning degrees of my body! Things are worseninggggggg! Help me God!

Mum and Dad asked me not to join the camp anymore because I am not gettin any better. That's so sadddddddddd! I want to go so badly! Stubbornly, I stated again that I will still be going to the camp. Determined that I will get well the next day, I slept earlier again after swallowing pills. The next day I woke up, excited about the camp, I packed my things but something stopped me. I felt the sudden pain in my throat when I tried to speak to someone at home. There is just no sound coming out ! I lost my voiceeeeeee! =(

Mum insisted that I had to see a doctor if I want to go for this camp. So I did. Had antibiotics prescribed for me, muco-slavans and eye infection drops. Took all this with me to the camp. Diligently I took these medication so I'd get well.

......Camp details postponed to another post....

I didnt get well if you want to know. Had to came back earlier than camp schedule. My family came up all the way to Serian-Ranchan to pick me up and send me to the hospital. That was like 50km away from the Kuching itself. And it was like 1++ am when they arrived. Hmmm...

Still taking my medication till now.. Pray to get better as soon as possible! =(


**Sorry for the low quality photographs as these were all taken by my Samsung phone camera**

p/s: will post some more when I get the photographs from the camera.

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Random

Just my random post today..

The cute little couple magnet from Matt and Cathy's place...

Were the only magnets on their new refrigerator in their brand new house!

This couple is rated by me to have the ' CUTE-X-FACTOR '

Their love story is a fairy tale come true....
Their wedding are of princes and princesses!..
Now waiting for ehem ehem ehemmmmm.... ^^

Little Matts and Little Cathiesssss =P~

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Christmas

Merry Christmas everyoneeeeeee! ^^

May this year be filled with

love, joy, hope ,

and all the goodie things we can gettt!

Because the best Christmas gift has already been given to us!

Our Saviour Christ Jesus!

' E M M A N U E L '

God-Is-With-Us

May this year's season of Christmas reminds us to open our hearts to be home for Christ!

Always! ^^

Merry Christmas 2007!

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Wrapped 2007

Wrapping up my Second Year in Bachelor of Chemical Engineering’s First Semester in Curtin University of Technology Sarawak for the year 2007, it was not even close to a breeze of the wind. It was full of bumps, hills and even mountains to conquer. It was bitter-sweet time of my life.

It started of me pumped up gearing for the new semester of second year. Started off the semester pretty relaxed and smooth. Met up with a lot of new friends this semester and this bunch of people are so cool and not mentioning super nice? I’m glad to have spent the semester with these great bunch! It’s their first semester but it seems like they are so familiar with the places in Miri that you never would thought they were new students.

And the most important thing of all, THEY LOVE GOD ! ^^ Praise God!

Like always in the beginning of the semester VCF would be busy planning and preparing activities and planning the program for the movement of the whole semester. Getting schedule done so it wouldn’t be a distraction to our studies. Finding speakers and organizing teams for camps. We had a VCF Life Camp this semester! It was in Niah Cave. Yes… Again! But we went with a different bunch of people! So it was a whole different experience! However, it was to disappointment to some of the participants as we did not get to explore the caves due to some renovations of the pathways. Oh well, there is always next time right? ^^ No worries! The cave is not running away! The only possibility is the bats moving ‘house’ ! =P~

The ‘hard-to-forget’ or ‘always-remembered’ scene of the whole camp was the part when my team were presenting a skid in front of everyone during talent night. I had all the parts of the skid in the tiny brain of mine and so we rehearsed for a couple of times. However during the actual night….. Lance who was supposed to be King Saul had only one line in the skid as he was a bit too nervous or not to keen about skids. He was supposed to introduce himself to the crowd as King Saul. But he blew it!!!! Hahaha!

..................................................Skid begins..........................................................

Lance : *Hits his rod on the floor to order guards away of his sight*

****** Guards moved away ******

Lance : ………………..
Guard1(Manda): Introduce yourself….
Lance : Ok ok..
Lance : ……………..
Guard1(Manda): Say you are King Saul…. ‘I am King Saul!’
Lance : *nods*
Lance : I THINK SO !!!

****** Crowd laughed like mad ******

It was classic mannn.. I would never forget this skid ever!
The camp was soon over and studies continued like norm.

During the holidays, Robert agreed with me to see a doctor for his injured knee. It turns out that he needed to undergo a surgery as he had an ACL injury where his ligament was torn. We made an appointment with the doctor that the surgery to be performed after the Life Camp, which he claimed to be his last activity. We had a one week break for our midterm examinations. We took the opportunity to put the surgery appointment there so at least we are free from timetables.

On the morning of the surgery day, we got up early as Robert says he wants to have something before the operation. But generally we are not supposed to take in any food before a surgery, it’s a procedure. In the end we decided to rest a little while longer as the surgery was appointed at 8 a.m. The journey there was a bit upsetting for me as I recalled the time when my sister was in the hospital. I hate surgeries and anesthesia! I mean who likes it? T_T It’s scary!
I know football means a lot to Robert. I worry that he might not be able to play football anymore because the doctor did mention about the varying results of the surgery.
When he came out from the operation theatre, his face was so pale from the blood loss. Half conscious, I can see that he was in pain. It was a painful sight to watch.

Hmmm.. Let’s skip the whole hospital story.
Praise God that he is alright now! ^^

Lectures.. Tutorials.. Lectures.. Tutorials…Lectures.. Tutorials.. Lectures…Tutorials…

I totally don’t get anything from these two this whole semester. I mean I really really cannot catch up with the lessons. How am I to pass examinations? My friends were struggling too but they were alright and needed time of their own to save their studies. I really lost hope this semester and my heart says I would never make it this semester. I need to prepare myself to let everything go and accept failure. I need to have courage, stand up and learn from my past and failure. The pressure was too big to take that I broke down and lost myself. I threw my books away and led myself to tears and screams.

What have I been doing this whole semester?

Why didn’t I concentrate on my studies?

What was my focus?

What did I want that I neglected my studies?

Where is my self-discipline?

Why am I so useless and dependent?

Why am I like this?

Why?

I told myself… There is no time left. It takes a miracle to pass exams.

There is no time left. There is no time left… There is really no time left…
I cried myself to sleep almost every night. I tried to study but I ended up crying.
That point of my life, I felt lunatic. I felt like I was about to do something stupid.




It made me neglect God’s presence in my life. I felt like hope was gone.

What should I pray for now?

Everyone kept encouraging me to continue on. There is still hope. And that I should pray for guidance and courage. I am sorry to have neglected those words from the beginning.
At the end of the day when exam approached, I turned to God and asked for His guidance and care. I didn’t want to attend the examination. I didn’t even want to go to the exam hall. But I prayed that morning. And asked God to be there with me and help me do my best. To write whatever I can. If I were to fail, please Father give me strength to carry on and comfort me. I went through examinations without really going through my books. I depended on God fully and slept well all those four nights.

Exam soon ended and everyone was out from stress. For once in my life in Curtin, I couldn’t feel happy after exams. It felt so normal to me while everyone started jumping in joy. I felt really sad that I could not have those feelings because I did not work hard this semester. T_T I did not want to celebrate with my course mates because there was nothing worth celebrating for. That’s for me. Went straight home and slept.

Like a secret love letter or a diary, I kept my problem under the pillow for the time being. Honestly, I do not want to be lunatic nor do I want to lose my sanity. I do not want to live a life where it is empty and without joy. I know my problems cannot be hid forever under my pillow but let me prepare myself Abba Father to overcome this. I need all the courage I can get, all the strength and all the endurance. Hope is there because You are there.
I trusted God with all my heart in my exams and He blessed me.

Thank you DAD! ^^

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